I don’t get the whole birthday thing. Call me a harsh heartless cunt but I don’t get why the spotlight is on you for one day when you were born into this world. Yeah, yeah your celebrating your birth blah blah blah but what’s the big deal? People just act extra nice and special towards you even though you weren’t close with that person. Take facebook greetings for example, I bet only 1/4 of my facebook friends know my birthday. If I didnt hide my birthdate, the day before my birthday, I would have random post from random people that I don’t care to much about. Thats why when I want to greet someone important to me, I make it a point to greet them personally or at least send a personal message to their inbox not on their wall/timeline. I try not to get into the lengthy facebook post with inside jokes that no one gets and photo collages. I mean too mainstream right? I’d rather have intimate conversations that make your bond stronger.
I honestly rather walk around with an invisibility cloak and see how people around you act as if you werent there. Thats how I would celebrate life, by having everyone go about their day not knowing I was there all along. I don’t care if they don’t even notice I’m gone or dont remember me at all. But I’d rather see them being real and I also learn more about them by watching them go about their day.
I saw an old friend today. I didn’t know if he recognized me from when I was young. I hesitated a smile and probably ended up looking like a crazy person. Time has really got to him, his face had more lines and I don’t think he has smiled as often but instead he was filled with worry of what’s to come. His hands are probably rough as stone from getting his kid to high school by now and soon college. His black hair has grayed out from late nights of trying to figure out how to make a livelihood. And this is a good example, a kind enough friend had probably let him drive his jeepney for a portion of his earnings. I’d like to think these things so that him growing old will not be all for nothing. I hope he enjoys life and take it as it comes. I want him to look back to those moments when he was filled with joy from all the little things/moments and smile.